Another Chemo down . . .Thank God !!!!
October 22, 2012 § 4 Comments
So today . . . well I’m glad that’s another one out of the way – even the smell of walking into the hospital this morning started to make me feel ill. I think it is all the smells I am starting to associate with illness and chemotherapy. I keep thinking about this time last year when I kept thinking about all the things I had to look forward to with work, travel, relationships etc – how wrong could I have been? I actually do find it hard to think how wrong I could have been – makes me wonder about my own judgement sometimes.
Anyway, the chemo – feel quite sick this afternoon and very tired. I also think I sort of ‘worked myself up’ for this one – anticipating that it would be a bit more difficult. The nurses are all so lovely and supportive and have explained that it is just the build up of the chemo in my system. They have assured me though that it is really good for the cancer, ie it kills it !!!! I’m hoping it has and that it won’t come back – don’t want to do this again. The funny thing about the cancer I have is that it shows signs of both slow and fast growing cancer types so until we get through the chemo and subsequent tests I don’t think I will really know where I stand. And then, assuming I go into remission, the next 18 to 24 months will be important in terms of monitoring how things progress. Hopefully it won’t ever come back !!!!!
So tomorrow the community nurse comes to give me my neulasta and then its predisolone (high dose0 for the next five days – all hopefully for the second last time. At least now there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I’m looking forward to feeling better and getting on with my life. I am hoping that all the good things that I anticipated this time last year, present themselves again.