I Don’t Care About Losing My Hair – Well Maybe I Do A Bit . . . .
September 11, 2012 § 4 Comments
Well it has finally happened – the hair is now gone. It started to fall out in clumps on Sunday – the day before Chemo no. 2. It was a bit distressing so yesterday after the treatment I just got it all shaved off. At least now I am not thinking about it – it is just done. I have a selection of nice caps and hats to wear so that is all OK. And while I said all along losing my hair was no big deal – it did feel odd letting it all go. It was sort of proof that I do actually have cancer and that the treatment is pretty rough. It represents a new milestone in my realisation and acceptance of what I have. And I do feel a little embarrassed about seeing people for the first time – it will just take some time to get used to. I am a pretty proud person so my usual response is not to let people know if there are any issues – with a shaved head and cap, it don’t leave much room for guessing !!! There have been so many other things happening in my life over the last 12 months that when the cancer came along I found it easy to deal with because I had a lot of other challenges to manage. But yesterday it sort of struck home. Mind you, my sister tells me (and others imply) I am the healthiest cancer patient they have seen. I hope it continues that way. I got a bit of a talking to by the community nurse today making sure I am not pushing myself too much and not brushing off things as insignificant – tiredness etc. I don’t think I am. I think I am doing OK. Tonight for some odd reason the lymph glands in my neck are sore and one of them is swollen. I presume it is from the chemo – i’ll see how they are tomorrow before I worry. I know I have so many drugs in my system that anything is possible.
One thing I meant to say about my hair/head – is that I didn’t realise what a small head I have. It looks like a little ball on my shoulders – I love that hats but because my head is small a couple of them are just about falling over my eyes. I guess that means they will fit when my hair grows back !!!!
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