Stones in the Road and Bloody Boulders on the Highway !!!!!!!
September 7, 2012 § 6 Comments
In my last post I reflected on the constant worry and strain of having an anorexic daughter – the utter waste of the 18th year of a beautiful young girl’s life. Between then and now I have spent most of the week at the hospital – not for me but for her.
Prior to my post she was already suffering a very severe bout of diarrhoea – had been for almost a week. By last Sunday, having gone to the doctor several times and with no medication working, I took her to the hospital emergency department. Down to 40 kilos – there was literally nothing of her but skin and bone – bones protruding through the skin. She was hunched over like an old woman with hardly enough strength to support herself upright. While her condition was obviously made worse by the diarrhoea, there is no doubt in my mind that this was a crisis point in her anorexia. She simply had none of her own reserves to fall back on. To cut a long story short she was admitted to hospital last Sunday and has since spent most of the week there, only coming home yesterday – still very, very thin but at least with no diarrhoea and more importantly, a genuine realisation (pray to God ) of the severity of her anorexic condition. While I hope this realisation will last – there is no guarantee, anorexia is just the most insidious illness, it eats away not just at the body but also the mind !!!!! In terms of me, having just had the one chemo treatment I took the risk of sitting in emergency and visiting the hospital numerous times during the week. What else was I to do??? I am just thankful we all got through it – chemo again next week so I guess the timing could have been worse.
So needless to say over the last week I have reflected on the blog Sus and I have set up – Stones in the Road taken from the same titled song by Mary Chapin Carpenter, nicely captures I think the determined attitude Sus and I have about managing our respective health issues with a view to getting on with our life. But just when you think you have the stones pretty much under control it’s those bloody boulders that really take you off course when you least expect it – those are what you have to get over – no getting around them!! More about stone sin the road another time – great song by the way !!!